February 2010
4 posts
I knew from 15 years ago that I wasn’t a very good Christian. I’m peepin these Facebook pages of the boy I went to prom with and chickies I was “bff” with briefly and they’re all Christ-like. I am…. ha!…. not. I’m sitting here now with a glass of bitchin Zenato Ripasso Valipocello right here in my hand in a Reidel after I just made...
pastimes
Have I really been up for an hour now? I turned down the heat at 4:30 a.m. knowing that my gas bill is gigantic, but it’s frickin cold outside. I’ve reached the point, FINALLY, where I wish there was someone in my bed for comfort and cuddle over booty. I thought I’d never get there. I generally think boys are stinky - especially at night. The farts, the snores, the breath,...
January 2010
1 post
For the "first" time...
I’m not sure how many times you’ve watched a woman look at your things for the first time. I’m sure you’ve watched a hundred heads toss hair to the side in order for you to see a glimpse of a figure dying for you to want her. How many times you’ve told yourself the lie, “I won’t hurt her. I just want to touch her right now.” I wonder how many...
November 2008
7 posts
social distortion
I am most happy when I am alone. By that I mean, I came to my parents’ house without a boyfriend and with the mindset that I’m single… still. My fam will just have to deal with it and the usual questions are become too usual and less annoying. They really are. As soon as I had a boyfriend recently and realized I didn’t want one that made me feel anything less than as...
“If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become...”
– John Quincy Adams (via lynclair)
“The challenge of leadership is to be strong, but not rude; be kind, but not...”
– Jim Rohn (via lynclair)
September 2008
3 posts
moving right along
I’ve been feeling confident since I moved into this house by myself. I have a lot of alone time with no fear of getting in someone’s hair if I turn up my music or the television and I can wear my t-shirt and panties on the couch and check email for hours. I mean, ya. Totally worth the expense.
So in my confidence, I tried to approach an old friend who I had a falling out with last...
ball up
I’ve had some really intersting feedback on what I usually write… emotionally, savvy, full of adjectives. I’m glad some of my friends really “get it.” Casey Smite, my best friend of over 15 years being one of them. Love that/her/us/it all.
I took my lunch yesterday to tell a man how I felt. I mean, it was good. There was no real rejection other than...
August 2008
9 posts
after my book, boredom sets in
I’m sitting on the front porch watching my puny little yard sale sit there. Rotting. If I sit any stiller I’m going to have to call in to work tonight - pre-rigamortise.
How do you, anyone, continue to be friends with someone you’re infatuated with? Do please tell.
I finished The Red Tent this morning before the rotting process began and boredom muted my fun here at the...
East Nash
I move to East Nashville in a week. Whew. I’m scared and it couldn’t have come at a worse time when I really don’t need to be driving, but it’s gonna be ok. I mean, of course it is. And East Nashville. To me, it’s scary. I’m so Midtown. I was so Nolensville Road. I mean, I can do this. I rocked out Nolensville Rd for a long time. We can do this,...
Atheists attend God and Country Day at the Fair →
(via brittjohnson)
It was interesting to see the tshirts at the fair representing religious beliefs. I’m gonna start wearing a tshirt with Vito’s picture on it because he’s as much a religion to me as atheism. How do people observe atheism anyway? I’m gonna look that up so I don’t remain in the dark. Adamant Atheist, tell me your schtick. Help me so that I get...
no, it don't come easy
No, it don’t come easy, Patty Griffin. I can’t lay off her music sometimes because it’s like my heart’s bleeding and she’s the bitch with the gauze. I swear, it’s like I haven’t stopped bleeding since the first time I experienced love. It’s like I’m damn famished. I hate to sound “needy” or “hungry” or anything other...
July 2008
1 post
in the moment
I am not stuck in a moment. I am this moment pushing through this morning and into the afternoon with a classic French brandade with cauliflower remoulade, pickled carrots, pickled okra and caper guacamole. I’m throwing the pita points to the side because they’re deliscious, but not in my plan of carbs for today. I wish my body was perfect and svelt and I had a certain man by my...
April 2008
2 posts
I have great, big, round tannins
I am a full-bodied woman. If I were a wine, I’d be not quite a super-Tuscan… maybe more along the lines of a Vallipocella since they’re juicy and have round tannins and they open up as soon as they hit your pallete. Anyway…. off to work!
heads will roll
I have been having intense erotic dreams the past few months. I mean, this morning I woke up and my nipples were like darts and I think may have been throbbing! I know that I’ve always been an imaginative, sensual person, but seriously. I need to work out more I think and excersise some of this energy. Then at the private party last night at Agave I was followed into the bathroom by a...
March 2008
10 posts
romantic planet
I was called in to serve tables at Zola yesterday afternoon and asked to open things earlier than normal because of the VIP in attendance. I thought it would be a celebrity until the secret service arrived and checked out the building and I saw a tall Somalian woman arrive who I learned was Ayaan Hirsi Ali - is an active critic of Islam, an advocate for women’s rights and a leader in the campaign...
a pregnant pause
Be still and know that I am God. I need to refer back to my roots more often than I usually do and sit on my porch and listen to the sounds of Woodlawn Drive because my life is full of chatter and rushing and stuffs. If I smoked cigarettes I’d look much cooler sitting on my front porch rather than beside a drying foam pad that usually fits on my bed until Vito had a tinkle incident a week...
Dear Hillary,
How ABOUT all the thousands of pounds of sick cows pumped into our meat markets? I mean, wow. The older I get the more I think about what I put on my fork and last week I read about the hormones and vitamins and minerals that have been added to our clean water supply and I worry about all that. It’s creepy on too many levels. See, and it’s up to me as an adult and citizen and voter...
a nudge
The universe finally claimed my old, scraped, beaten, bruised phone. I don’t know where it ended up, but I realized how liberating it’s been to have phone numbers vanish when I don’t have the decisiveness to actually delete them.
Queen Guinevere, what will you do next?
When I’m feeling a little beat up over relationships I take time off. I can’t always, but I usually want to because I’m not good at knowing the right thing to do with certain people who are doing their thing that I don’t understand because it either hurts me or doesn’t fit for whatever reason Then there are a few people that I take breaks from and always come back...
It's a March showdown for the Democrats
I’m kind of infatuated with the current election process. This is one of the most entertaining and intrigueing times in my life so I’ll be really interested to see who the Democratic leader will be after the debates, what find out about eachother, etc.
Yesterday was great. Sat outside PM and saw a chick skip the entire length of Belmont’s sidewalk as far as I could tell while...
Cards, mail, letters....
Remember the Christmas cards that were worth saving with glitter and felt and gorgeous pop-out pictures? I used to save all my family’s Christmas cards thinking that someday I would do something with them because they were so pretty and then through a series of moves, I threw them away. I mailed out about 50 Valentine’s this year and when I put them in the mailbox after leaving...
“I am detest and desire; all wet and on fire.”
– I wrote this a long time ago and it originally popped in my mind as a Biblical reference to the time an alter was built in the Old Testament and the non-believers poured water all over this alter and challenged God’s prophet to pray to his God and have Him set it on fire. And it happened. ...