Queen Guinevere, what will you do next?
When I’m feeling a little beat up over relationships I take time off. I can’t always, but I usually want to because I’m not good at knowing the right thing to do with certain people who are doing their thing that I don’t understand because it either hurts me or doesn’t fit for whatever reason Then there are a few people that I take breaks from and always come back together with. I’m afraid some relationships were meant to lose.
I watched this movie, “Guinevere” with Stephen Rea and Sarah Polley tonight about a photographer that made a lot of women fall in love with him and influenced them to open up and as he died they came together in his apartment and reminiced which reminds me so much of Nathan Burkett. It was hard to keep the tears back at the end of the movie when his character dies and he’s greeted by a gorgeous young woman at the end of his hallway with a camera and he floats away. At the time I met Nathan I was so bottled up, but needed to get over a lot of obstacles with my family and he was one of the very few people who was honest with me and shared with me about his pain and his family. I don’t trust people who seem to have a good day everyday and wouldn’t date a man or have a friend who expected life to work out that way. There are some… the privelaged, it seems, who have a lot of leg-ups because of their parent(s) or money or whatever, but I feel sorry for those that don’t understand where I’m coming from. From the broken-hearted and honest about it. Unembarrassed.
